...can be extremely tiring and confusing.
This weekend got me thinking about this ish. What the fuck is friendship and what does it entail? I looked at my so-called friends, and found that I had 4 types!
1. Good time friends
I have friends who know how to have a good time aka "Good Time Friends". I see them during the weekend, when times are good, and the money's in the bank and the party's on and that's where it ends really (and we like it that way)!
2. Parasitical Friends
I have friends whose shit I listen to every fucken day. Friends who take up my time complaining about their fucken priviledged existences. Friends who hardly ever ask how I'm doing and when they do, it's just to be polite! Very often, I feel like screaming "SHUT THE FUCK UP, I GOT BETTER SHIT TO DO", mid conversation. But I don't. I sit my ass down and listen and hope that one day it will be okay and that the topic of conversation will change. I now think that day is never coming.
3. Fake Friends
I have friends who pretend to listen, but never remember a gahd dang thing about me. Friends I love dearly but I could never ever count on! Friends who I would never call if shit went down and I needed help ASAP! It ain't cos I'm judging, but cos I've tried it before. Friends who are too self-involved to have my back. Friends who will only be there when there's nowhere else to be. Friends who will never tell me what's going on in their lives, no matter how much I ask. Friends that make me question why the fuck I love them so dearly.
4. "My Heart"
I have friends who listen to my shit, give me sound advice about men, sex, work, money, depression, outfits, errthang. Friends who comfort me when I'm down, share my sense of humour, forgive me (eventually) when I've fucked up or fucked them over majorly! Friends who will never forget my birthday, what food I eat, or don't eat...Friends who will remember to send me a good luck sms on the morning of my interview and remember to ask how it was later that day! Friends who never ditch me and if they do, they give me enough prior notice! Friends who have my mama's number on speed dial. Friends who tell me the truth even though I don't want to hear it. Friends who will buy me Nando's when I'm ass broke and still take me out to dinner even if I got paid! Friends who and still party with like crazy!
I guess I AM bitching but there comes a time when you have to start calling a spade a spade in case you get mad confused. Growing up ain't easy and what makes it difficult is naivete and pleading oblivion. I don't blame you for being a bad friend or a non-friend. I blame myself for letting you do it!
And so at the end of this weekend I decided to get out of that mode and start using my energy, wisely!
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7 comments:
at least u have friends
they didn't fall from the sky! I reciprocate! I give and receive....most times!
lulu nation! i miss u so much - i've realised that we don't talk so much anymore. and reading this, well, kinda makes me nostalgic and a bit sad. so, so much to talk about...
I sent this post to my closest friends...growing up is hard - and sometimes, at some point you start taking things...people for granted.
You gave me a pleasant wake up call...
sta...: aaah..babe! Don't be sad! you know i'm always there!
Heartwarmer: Yeah...my sentiments exactly! My mom always told me to surround myself with people who are after my well being. I guess I kinda forgot that along the way!
ive always said that you are my guardian angel - you have the purest heart i know. You never told me gore onale Blog - but now i know. Dop.e post!
Aaahh....thanks Sweetest One!!! You rock!
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